My name is Rachel and my last blog post was 9 months ago.
I'm not sure that I'm the worst blogger ever but I definitely know I'm probably up for some type of terrible blogger award.
Anyway, life has been crazy since my last post. This has been a very weird year.
Full-on Hiatus mode since July. And by hiatus, I mean I have gone on ZERO dates. I've still been off and on Tinder but there is slim pickins' as far as the quality matches I've had.
This is by far the longest time in YEARS that I've gone without going on any dates.
I had a relationship from April to July that ended sort of amicably but sort of not and I decided I needed to take a break and figure out some things. I'm not sure I've actually accomplished what I set out to do but it has at least done my heart some good to heal a bit from a series of being the in-betweener girl.
To refresh your memory, of the last three relationships I've had: 1) Engaged to the girl that he started dating right after we broke up; 2) Having a baby in two months with his "best friend" that he started dating shortly after we broke up (a year ago); and 3) Seriously dating the woman that he met while we were still dating and assured me that he would not start dating right away when we broke up - except that's exactly what I knew he would do and exactly what he did.
There is something strange about the haves and have nots when it comes to relationships. There is definitely a distinct group of relationship people and non-relationship people.
I appear to be in the non-relationship camp but I haven't really nailed down the difference yet. All I know is that there are a ton of awesome, smart, successful and beautiful women in the Twin Cities that can't seem to find a fella with similar qualities.
Anyway, I will probably start tip-toeing back into dating after the holidays - or not.
My philosophy right now is to be happy and live my life and just to be open if the right person comes along.
Other life stuff:
Apparently 38 years old is the year that your body starts falling apart - at least for me.
I was hospitalized in July for iron deficiency anemia and then ended up having to get intravenous iron infusions for a couple months to resolve that issue. Expensive and all-around inconvenient and not fun.
Then in September, I had a bout of Bells Palsy which is facial paralysis.
The entire left side of my face was paralyzed - I couldn't close my eye all the way, I couldn't raise my eyebrow or forehead and I couldn't smile.
There is no known cause other than its typically related to some type of virus or viral infection that affects the cranial nerve.
It was extremely scary and awful experience and made me realize a bit how much a persons face is a part of their entire identity. I use my face a ton and without being able to use expressions it was very depressing.
Thankfully, I have recovered fully although I feel like I can still tell a little bit but I can smile again which definitely has helped my psyche.
The other main thing that I've been up to since my last post is this little venture called: MNCommunity but this blog post is long enough already so that's a story for a different day.
Cheers to a wonderful holiday season!