My Junk

What do you do at 1am when you can't sleep because of you old friend insomnia? I suppose in the absence of anything else to do, one blogs. 

I keep thinking about this one particular quote from Mad Men where Faye says to Don Draper "I hope she knows you only like the beginnings of things." 

For some reason that quote really resonated with me at the time I first heard it on the show and for some reason, it has come back around. 

This week has not been the easiest. 

I don't necessarily want to get into all the ugly details but suffice to say, my heart took a little bit of a beating this week. 

But I am learning things about myself, which is perhaps the purpose in all this. 

I need to work on my communication skills. 

I don't react well when things do not go the way that I want them to go. 

I can be in a relationship or involvement where there is distance involved but this is not workable for others. 

I need to make sure I am putting effort into someone that is worthy and stop putting effort into relationships (romantic or otherwise) where the effort is not reciprocal. 

Some day it will be my turn to be in the happy couple photos that I see all over social media - its not my turn right now and I need to be ok with that. 

I always wonder about those photos - especially when I see them used on Tinder. What happened between happy family photo and Tinder? You can't love everything about a person all the time, so maybe the percentage between what the person can stand and can't stand became off balance. 

So, that's some of my junk. We all have junk - some just hide it better than others. 

The End.